Transfer has happened!!!

On Thursday, June 23rd we transferred one beautiful, hatching blast. We originally had 4 that we thawed, but only this one made it. I won't lie, I was very sad and disappointed after I got home from the transfer. I was hoping to transfer 2 blast, but there's nothing I could change. I have to have Faith and believe that things turned out the way they were intended.

Update....

Sorry I haven't posted in quite sometime but here it goes.

After a long DONOR EMBRYO journey from our last failed IVF back in August 2010 we are officially here!!! TRansfer date is..........................




THURSDAY, JUNE 23rd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




Went in this morning for an ultra sound and blood work after taking BCPs. I just got the call. My numbers are great and it's time to start my schedule!

Estrogen ~ FULL SPEED AHEAD starting tomorrow!!! YIKES! Still can't believe I'm FINALLY here!

I told my nurse that I've never once had a lining issue with any of my IVF's. I always had amazing thickness. She was happy to hear this. I go back on June 17th for what's hopefully my last appt before transfer. I'll have my lining checked and blood work again.

Tom and I are going to book a hotel for June 22nd so we can relax the night before transfer near the clinic. Transfer is early in the morning.

Prayer request....

I'm really leaving this all in God's hands. I do pray for perfect thawing vibes so the embryos survive and are healthy as the day they were frozen in 2006. My Faith is there though. I do carry it in my heart and soul. I know God has brought me to this path and the donors to me for a reason. Just when I thought I was at the end when the previous donors took back offering their embryos to us, I was crushed. It was not a month later when this couple came to us from a site called Miracles Waiting. I feel very blessed and I will say excited!

The Long and WHINING Road....

Been feeling kind of blah. Just so much going on and NOTHING about getting closer to our FET it seems. My lack of posting comes from lack of enthusiam. IDK how to think or feel anymore. I don't even feel like we're going to be trying again. EVER. As soon as I start to feel we're getting somewhere and I can look at May or June or whenever, there's a set back with a 100 other things that get in my way and that can't be ignored. ALWAYS about someone or something else. What ever happened to the constant trying days?? I mean, I feel like for 2 1/2 years straight we were doing something fertility wise and now it seems like forever and it's almost like I honestly don't know how to get back into it or feel that it will come again.

I got an email from my nurse at Cooper Inst in NJ where our embryos are and just when I thought I could start looking/planning on a month to finally say "okay, I'll start BCP in such and such" she emails me saying how she was reviewing my chart to make sure we weren't missing anything and boom! Oh we didn't get this from Shady Grove .....oh we didnt get this from your OB. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!

So I called both places and hopefully got them to fax over what they need. Jeezum crimers!!!! Is it safe to say I can start BC with May's AF now??? Well, who knows.....

I hate to get excited over this anymore.

Sorry for lack of updates.....

Lots going on but again NOTHING going on. Yes, if it ain't one thing, it's another.

After my last post on March 10 about all the testing being done and so forth, well the results came back. First I needed to go back to get another mammo and sono of my right breast. Afterwards the Dr showed me where the 'concern' was on the xray. Great, just what I needed....

DH cultures came back and he has an infection, mine came back all negative. So he's on anitbiotics for 2 weeks and we go back for cultures for him again. I need to have one more set of bloodwork done as they had me do the wrong ones (rolling my eyes).

Back to my Mammo. The Dr wanted me to come back in 2-3 months for another look at this 'spot'. I then expressed myself to him in detail about our upcoming FET. He didn't know. So 'supposably' he said he will put a 'rush' on getting a second opinion from a Dr at John Hopkins. I didn't know the word 'rush' meant the same as waiting over a week to have this Dr look at my xrays!?!? On Monday, I called the breast center yesterday to see what was going on and this is how I found out that the Dr that is suppose to be giving the 'second opinion' is not in till Thursday (tomorrow). So once again, I'm waiting.....

What will it be? Biopsy? Wait 2-3 months for another look? Nothing to worry about?

I'll kup.

Mammo - check!
Blood/Lab Work - check!
Cultures - check!

Tom and I are D-O-N-E!!!! I won't lie, it was a hectic early morning run, with Mammo at 8am, labwork at 9:45am then cultures at 10am at the OB's office, but all worth it. Well now I can say that. lol.

I worked myself up so badly all week long, or should I say for the last 2 weeks over that darn Mammogram!! UGH! It was my first one ever (yes I know, bad girl) and I've heard so many horror stories that it just kept playing on my mind. But let me assure you, there was no horror about it. As the tech said, women are dramatic! She wasn't lying!

So needless to say, we're done with all the testing. Now what the results will be, that's another story, but I'll keep positive that all will be okay. All that I have left is my Mock transfer and Saline Ultrasound, but that I'll have done when I start my cycle of birth control. Hoping in May.

I'll KUP! ;-)

Drive by Update

Embryos are now in NJ!!!! :) Got the package from the clinic with everything I need to get signed and testing to be done. Tom was a bit upset that he still has testing to do. The nurse said it's because we are sexually active. I felt like telling her "well no not really. Seeing since all the fertility madness we've really not at all!" But I didn't. I stopped myself. lol

So I have my OB appt next Thursday, March 3rd and I'll have my cultures and physical done. No pap needed as I got it last July and it's still good she said. I will also need a Mammo. I'm NOT happy about that. I know I'm bad at 44 years old and never having one, but my MD clinic never enforced it, but they do. So I'm going to have to toughen up and just get it done. Hopefully nothing is found. Tom and I will go over to Lapcorp and get our bloodword out of the way while we're in that area and he's with me. All he has to do is give blood and piss in a cup. NICCCCE!

With that said, I would have to say that our FET will probably now happen in May or June. May being on BCP and FET in June. Trying to make it happen in April is unrealistic. Who knows at this point. I really want to get to it, but money wise we don't have it. I need to at least have a cc to use at this point. Right now we are tight with not much on cc to spare. Again, I'm ok with this. I was happy to see I lost 3 more lbs this morning, so I know it will be for the best when we do our FET. 12lbs total!!

I will keep you all posted as always!

God Bless.

L

Can I get a "Alleluia"???? Well of course I can!!!!

My birthday wish is here. Yesterday was the day the word came from our donor. Those beautiful words that filled my heart with joy, at a great time too, 2 days away from my Birthday!! Those reassuring words that I longed to hear for what seems an eternity. Donor; "Well this is it. The embryos are yours!! All the necessary paperwork is done on our end! You can call the clinic in TX and have them shipped to NJ!"

WOW what a feeling! 4 Beautiful embryos for my 44th Birthday! We really need to do our FET in April being it's the 4th month right? It just feels right. We will try our best!

So here's the plan. I called the clinic today. Monday I will receive a call from Sarah who takes care of this sort of thing. For about $350 or so I will have my babies shipped to our clinic in NJ! Once they are there, I will call my nurse and discuss our FET plans! Can you believe I'm finally here?? I can't. It's not real to me. I've been waiting for so long for something to happen after our last IVF attempt and our moment is here!

I pray to the Lord that these beautiful, precious embryos are my path to motherhood. Something I've wanted for way too long. Please God, hear my hearts desires. Help one (or two) of these precious gifts become my child on earth for me to love.

In Jesus' name. AMEN.

God Bless.

I will keep you all posted!

L