The Long and WHINING Road....

Been feeling kind of blah. Just so much going on and NOTHING about getting closer to our FET it seems. My lack of posting comes from lack of enthusiam. IDK how to think or feel anymore. I don't even feel like we're going to be trying again. EVER. As soon as I start to feel we're getting somewhere and I can look at May or June or whenever, there's a set back with a 100 other things that get in my way and that can't be ignored. ALWAYS about someone or something else. What ever happened to the constant trying days?? I mean, I feel like for 2 1/2 years straight we were doing something fertility wise and now it seems like forever and it's almost like I honestly don't know how to get back into it or feel that it will come again.

I got an email from my nurse at Cooper Inst in NJ where our embryos are and just when I thought I could start looking/planning on a month to finally say "okay, I'll start BCP in such and such" she emails me saying how she was reviewing my chart to make sure we weren't missing anything and boom! Oh we didn't get this from Shady Grove .....oh we didnt get this from your OB. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!

So I called both places and hopefully got them to fax over what they need. Jeezum crimers!!!! Is it safe to say I can start BC with May's AF now??? Well, who knows.....

I hate to get excited over this anymore.