Monday, September 26, 2011

Interesting words today....just what I needed.

You have to be very selective about what you give your time and attention to in order to live the life of victory God has promised. You have to recognize which thoughts to ignore, which comments to ignore, and sometimes, which people to ignore. Every “battle” that comes across your path is not a battle that you’re supposed to fight. Many battles are simply distractions to try to lure you off course. If that battle is not between you and your God-given destiny, it’s a battle you should ignore.

Many people get thrown off course because they are always trying to straighten everyone else out or win their approval. If that’s your focus, you are wasting valuable time and energy that you should be using to pursue your dreams. Turn away from that distraction! You don’t need the approval of everyone around you; you only need God’s approval!

Friend, it’s very freeing when you realize you don’t have to fight every battle. You don’t have to straighten people out. You don’t have to pay somebody back. Instead, focus on what matters; focus on God and His Word so you will live in peace and happiness every day of your life!

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

WOW!!! Please help a good Cause and our chance to a free cycle!!!

Shady Grove is conducting a 'Win a Free Cycle with SGFShady Grove Fertility', up to $10,000 in value, to one lucky raffle winner! You can sponsor someone when you fill out the raffle ticket!! What an amazing opportunity!

Here are the details:

Entry into the Shady Grove Fertility Free Cycle Raffle also includes entry into the Grubb's Pharmacy Fertility Medication Drawing.

- 1 winner will receive a free cycle with Shady Grove Fertility, up to a $10,000 value.
- 2 winners will receive $5,000 in fertility medication with Grubb's Pharmacy.
- Entrants, 18 years an older, can enter to win with a $30 entry fee.
- You may purchase up to 5 entries per household.
- You may gift the prize to another person.
- Cycle prize value may go towards any treatment cycle at Shady Grove Fertility, including IUI, IVF and Donor Egg.
- Some medications for the cycle will be suppled by Ferring Pharmaceuticals and EMD Serono.
- Contest ends Thursday, Sept 29th at 11:59 pm EST. Winner will be announced publicly on Sunday, October 2nd at the Cade Foundation Race for the Family.

Please visit this link to buy a raffle ticket and support me, Lorraine Sears.
Just knowing the donation will be going to a great cause as well is a BONUS!!

ACT SOON though, it ends next Thursday (September 29th a minute before midnight)

Thanks for your support!

God Bless,


Here's a new twist.....

I'm confused. Well maybe not confused but a bit taken back at this moment. Let me explain...

My husband got offered a full time position where he was working as an 'on call' security guard for one of the Navy contracts on base. The shift is in the evenings, so it's do-able. So he accepted. This now opens a door with health insurance with a large company. I'm not sure of what insurance company we will have but I know it will be 100% better than what we are paying right now for an 'Individual' plan due to being self employed.

Okay so here's my thoughts...

If I have IVF coverage....should I consider using my eggs??? Could I be lucky enough to get another BFP doing so and this time have that 'lucky egg'? I know I'm jumping the gun and I am ready to go to donor, but knowing insurance does not cover donor should I consider trying with my own if I should have coverage??

How life changes from one day to the next....

God Bless,


Tuesday, September 20, 2011

April/May 2012

Well I spoke to my niece yesterday and she REALLY wants to be the one to donate her eggs to us. I must agree, the thought of someone 'genetically' attached to this process would be nice. Not that it matters to the point that I would not or still am not considering doing a donor cycle with someone anonymous in which I already shared with her.

Money is the scary part for me really. I have a savings going and we could probable do a single donor cycle sooner than waiting for my niece early next year but do I want to take the chance. Not that using her is guaranteeing me a better outcome, but something in my gut is telling me to wait for her. Odd really when I think about it, because at this point why wait.....haven't I waited long enough? Or then again should I wait to save enough for a refund program so incase the unfortunate final outcome (with my history) that I do not bring a baby home after trying that at least I'm not left broke to venture onto something else perhaps? I know, I know...I sound so undecided really, but it's not that I wouldn't jump for the chance to try something right now but in the end its finances. It's the reality that has brought me here, to this point. Money is the root of all evil, as my Mom has always told me....but "it sure helps!" To make some dreams come true that's for sure!

So, of course this won't be my last post like this. I'm sure there will be others that follow that sound wishy washy as to where we're heading and when, but rest assure, we are heading somewhere and there's a precious baby waiting for us to love and cherish!!!

God Bless,


Saturday, September 17, 2011

To New Beginnings

At this point on our journey we are embracing what's to come. Praying and believing that all things are possible through God.

Honestly, I've been quite sad these past few months or should I be completely honest and say for far more over a year now. I have come to the conclusion that if I do not change my way of thinking and the feelings in my heart I will never move forward to His promises. I use to be so uplifting and somewhat confident in my actions, now I just sort of lay around waiting for something to bring me up and no matter what, nothing seems to anymore.

I'm trying so there's that. I spoke with my Dr a couple of weeks ago and she agreed from what I was expressing that I am clearly headed in a severe depression, if I'm not already there. We spoke about the realities of what I have been through. Many of you will understand who have been through IVF's and IF treatments, that your body goes through some pretty rough emotions let alone the repercussions of injections. I've gained access weight and I'm not feeling so healthy or active. This needs to change.

Today is a new beginning. I woke up and said "This is it Lorrie! You need to find yourself again and get yourself back to where you need to be, not necessarily where you once were, but an even better place!!" So with that said here it is. I am starting to exercise on a daily basis from this day forward. I will work on my body, mind and soul with the help of an exercise program, not letting things overtake my mind and keeping my heart open to God and his word. I will heal from this dark place and in the near future I will embark on another road to this journey and that's through Donor Egg.

We have some money put aside for this but as many of us know who have paid out of pocket for treatments it's not enough. Our goal is $10,000 to add to our baby fund. It's a lot to save up, but I believe things will turn around for us and the funds will come along somehow, someway.

God Bless,