I've had alot of emotions and 'bad' health issues since my miscarriage back in December. I had to have a Hysteroscopy and D&C on Friday, February 19th (my birthday btw), but I was ready to get 'cleared' out!! This was going on for too long. My RE found remaining tissue in my last saline ultra sound which just made me almost jump off that mountain. >:-/
I must say, I am totally convinced that what was left in my uterus (tissue, etc) was the cause of me feeling so badly. My lower back pain was so bad for over a month could hardly get out of bed. My body was a mess, always sore all over. I had no energy....the list goes on & on! I added vitamin B6 too and was taking all the other stuff (prenatals, royal jelly etc) and I knew something wasn't right for me NOT to feel good. I mean geez....vitamins/herbs are suppose to make you feel better not worse. So with that said, I am feeling 100%!!! I have alot more energy as the days go by since my surgery. I'm feeling pretty good so far on these BCP's (new one my RE prescribed). I am finally feeling happy inside again. RENEWED maybe?? Whatever it is, I'll take it after all I've been through and the heartache.
I'll have another saline ultra sound in a few weeks to make sure all is well and if so, then we're off! I got my protocol from my nurse. Estimated Egg retrieval date is 3/24 & estimated Egg Transfer is 3/27 or 3/29. I start acupuncture again tomorrow (Thursday, February 25) and then twice a week for 4 weeks.
I'm getting excited once again and I'm happy about that. I didn't think I would ever have happy days emotionally. Don't get me wrong, I still have pain in my heart and think of my baby all the time and still grieve for him/her, but I am ready to try again and those are healthy thoughts again.
I'll be keeping you all updated as things progress.
God Bless.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Saturday, February 20, 2010
A new Beginning...
Sorry I haven't been posting much other than Prayers, but I really haven't had the strength to go on and on about my time of limbo. My heart hurt too much and really didn't have the strength to share. I wanted to stop by today and at least tell you where we're at.
To make a long story short. Today was a very hurtful day. First and foremost because of having a D&C on my birthday. Then to have my step daughter create her 'usual' derespectful tantics that started yesterday into today that got me so angry. Adding more hurt to my soul at this awful moment in my life. Uncalled for and Unforgiving. Plain and simple. Always about herself. It would take days and pages of posts to ever describe to you all what I've been through with that child since she was 13 yrs old (she is now 21). So I'll just leave it at I pretty much told her to 'grow up and get over herself!" Moving on....
So tomorrow I'm taking the day to celebrate MY BIRTHDAY. As today I really couldn't even though I did have a few beers with pizza for dinner, but I'm so exhausted from being put 'under' today....tomorrow I'm waking up renewed & embracing a NEW day.
As I mentioned above, I had a D&C today. Yes, it was still tissue remaining from the miscarriage that was removed and my uterus lining scraped. With this done, I now wait for my period to show up. I'm assuming about a month or so. Then another saline u/s will be performed to make sure my uterus is clear and hopefully I'm FINALLY good to go. I'm going to take this 'extra' time and keep taking the DHEA and Royal Jelly to help with egg quality. Hopefully this is what God's intentions were for me. ~Praying~
As always, I will continue to keep my FAITH, and HOPE and PRAY that there will be my 'golden egg' next time around that will finally bring home my bundle of joy to hold in my arms come January of next year.
Good Night girls. Have a great weekend!
~God Bless~
xox
To make a long story short. Today was a very hurtful day. First and foremost because of having a D&C on my birthday. Then to have my step daughter create her 'usual' derespectful tantics that started yesterday into today that got me so angry. Adding more hurt to my soul at this awful moment in my life. Uncalled for and Unforgiving. Plain and simple. Always about herself. It would take days and pages of posts to ever describe to you all what I've been through with that child since she was 13 yrs old (she is now 21). So I'll just leave it at I pretty much told her to 'grow up and get over herself!" Moving on....
So tomorrow I'm taking the day to celebrate MY BIRTHDAY. As today I really couldn't even though I did have a few beers with pizza for dinner, but I'm so exhausted from being put 'under' today....tomorrow I'm waking up renewed & embracing a NEW day.
As I mentioned above, I had a D&C today. Yes, it was still tissue remaining from the miscarriage that was removed and my uterus lining scraped. With this done, I now wait for my period to show up. I'm assuming about a month or so. Then another saline u/s will be performed to make sure my uterus is clear and hopefully I'm FINALLY good to go. I'm going to take this 'extra' time and keep taking the DHEA and Royal Jelly to help with egg quality. Hopefully this is what God's intentions were for me. ~Praying~
As always, I will continue to keep my FAITH, and HOPE and PRAY that there will be my 'golden egg' next time around that will finally bring home my bundle of joy to hold in my arms come January of next year.
Good Night girls. Have a great weekend!
~God Bless~
xox
Monday, February 15, 2010
Each Day
TODAY'S SCRIPTURE
"Listen to my voice in the morning, Lord. Each morning I bring my requests to You and wait expectantly"
(Psalm 5:3, NLT)
What are some of the things you do each day? We are all creatures of habit in one way or another, but can you say like the Psalmist that you wait expectantly each day? Most people find it easier to follow the first part of this verse. They bring their requests each day; but really, the key to seeing God move in your life is found in the second part—to wait expectantly each and every day.
When you go out with an attitude of faith and expectancy, you are opening the door for God to move on your behalf. You are declaring with your actions that you trust Him. That's why it's so important to feed your faith every day by spending time with Him. So today, make time to study His Word. Take time to bring your requests to Him. Then, go out with an attitude of expectancy and watch what God will do on your behalf!
A PRAYER FOR TODAY
Father God, I dedicate this day to You. Thank You for all the blessings You have prepared for me. I wait expectantly on You today knowing that You are working behind the scenes on my behalf. In Jesus' Name.
Amen
"Listen to my voice in the morning, Lord. Each morning I bring my requests to You and wait expectantly"
(Psalm 5:3, NLT)
What are some of the things you do each day? We are all creatures of habit in one way or another, but can you say like the Psalmist that you wait expectantly each day? Most people find it easier to follow the first part of this verse. They bring their requests each day; but really, the key to seeing God move in your life is found in the second part—to wait expectantly each and every day.
When you go out with an attitude of faith and expectancy, you are opening the door for God to move on your behalf. You are declaring with your actions that you trust Him. That's why it's so important to feed your faith every day by spending time with Him. So today, make time to study His Word. Take time to bring your requests to Him. Then, go out with an attitude of expectancy and watch what God will do on your behalf!
A PRAYER FOR TODAY
Father God, I dedicate this day to You. Thank You for all the blessings You have prepared for me. I wait expectantly on You today knowing that You are working behind the scenes on my behalf. In Jesus' Name.
Amen
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